I just completed writing in my entire journal. Finishing a journal is almost like ending a chapter; I went back through almost everything that I have written. I started the journal my first day in Thailand. At the moment, I’m so filled with so many emotions. There have been times in these past 7 months that I have been so broken, so beat down; yet there have been times where it’s so evident I was seeking the perfect will of God for my life. It’s safe to say I’ve grown up a lot since I started this journal, God has fixed so many problems and I’ve been able to mature immensely. I also realize I have so much more growing, and maturing to do and I think I truly am looking forward to that.
Here’s one entry that brings me a bit of encouragement:
28 August 2009-
Father,
I don’t know how you continuously do this- but you have blessed me beyond belief! why would you love me and hold me so tight? Why would you choose to use me? I am so unworthy yet you give me so much! Father I will never understand why you chose a wretched soul like me to do your work- but know that I am so thankful, so grateful for your love! There is no one like you; there never could be! I praise you Jesus and I worship you always. My heart is forever yours, I’m asking you to keep it and protect it forever. Only share it when it is your perfect timing and know that I am ok with that. Even though I will complain- know that I want what and who you have planned for me.
I am personally thankful for:
Surrendering
Learning I am loved
Coming to Liberty
Leading a prayer group
Finding hope
Having Faith
Endurance to love
My family
My friends
My roommate <3
Dorm leadership
Rachel Ivy Glasser
Clarification
New friends
Patience
I love you Abba
Love, Aly
