Perfection

My entire life it seems as though perfection has been my goal. This isn't exactly the issue, because as I strive to live a life sacrificing and pleasing to Christ it SHOULD also be my goal to be perfect just as He lead a blameless, perfect life. The problem with me, is that I am so hard on myself, that when that impossible perfection is not reached in my life I can't accept it. Not only is this extremely stressful as nothing in my life or actions are perfect, but at this point especially after this year, I am just exhausted. I am so tired of failing constantly and then beating myself up over it. I'm tired of holding onto my own strength and trying to persevere alone. I am weak in every single possible way. I can't focus on anything that needs to be focused on. (aka the exam that I've been trying to study for all day) In reality, Christ is going to be pleased with my striving to live above reproach; although what He will not be pleased with is me tearing myself down, and my trying to use my own strength. Hello reality check, and Father please forgive me for my human ignorance and insignificance.

"But He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

I am loved.