My Future Husband:

I pray for you daily and I think of you often. I pray that the Lord is strengthening you and teaching you a lot. I pray you are relying on His strength and being submissive to His will. I pray that you are seeking His face and after His heart. I pray that you are daily growing in wisdom and stature. I hope you think of me. I pray also that the Lord is making me into the woman you need me to be. That I would also grow and be a woman worthy of your love. -aer

The Challenge

Something that has been hitting me hard lately is the cruelty of this world. It seems I've been told a lot in some way or another that: this world will only tear people like me up. That I need to be more guarded, that I need to be tougher, that I don't need to befriend everyone, that I shouldn't even be nice to everyone.

People seem to often mistake my kindness to ignorance. This is absolutely not the case. Initially, to be kind is my choice. But in reality, every ounce of kindness I've ever been able to give anyone has been Christ whose spirit dwells within me. I am called to love people; even if that love is not reciprocated. Because if we're being honest, kindness and love is not often something that is reciprocated properly. We tend to be selfish with our kindness and our love. What's funny is that we're not willing to give kindness and love because we're afraid that no one will give us theirs. It's an excruciating cycle that needs to be broken.

We need to love and pour kindness into people daily as if we'll never have another chance, never have another moment to do so... our selfish worries and desires shouldn't get in the way of that no matter what the world says.

'Guarding' and 'looking out' for ourselves isn't practical when the Creator of the universe is on your side. Regardless of whether or not this world tears down 'people like me' I could care less. My God fights for me. He defends me, He loves me and He is proud of me when I love His people without bounds.

It's hard to make amends
I know it isn't easy but try and understand
It's really not that bad
Through my eyes I'll see you there
Its hard to understand
When no one ever seems to care
And with my words I'll make a change
And try to rearrange

And walls of fear come crashing down
I won't look back don't turn around
And with my life I'll make a change
And hope we'll all be friend again

And walls of fear come crashing down
And ill never be the same
I won't look back don't turn around
And ill never be the same

-Hawk Nelson